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u know it so happens tht u think u have not really done anything,but still ppl tend to make u realize tht u r at fault..like i dun't know wht's happening... ppl start biting all of a sudden..they dun't like ur ideas, they dun't like ur suggestions, they dun't like ur work, they're very keen on their taunts.... wht m i suppose to do...they r my friends... :S... friends! but u knw wht..it works both ways... as always... u can't let it on alone for long... like there's this...weird knot..tht begs u to hold onto it... but u know it's of no use.... but still u r crazy enuff to hold onto it...:S ... n cherry on top, u dun't even know why.. :S ... m like really confused... everytime i decide tht yes things r getting better n at the forefront...it dwindles sumhow back to rearend... and the worst of all is tht when it's all grouped up! :S
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Prioritizing Requests!

The other day we had our system programmin class, and ma'am was talking abt jobs waiting in the queue, if they take a long time to be processed, then they r 'timed out', even though they were in the pending queue... isn't our life like this.. it's infact more easier to program the computer to prioritize requests and jobs..but it's VERY DIFFICULT, or put it, very complicated to prioritize requests in life! we just can't figure out wht comes first! And when we do list out the requests in our "LIFE QUEUE"..most of them simply "time-out"... even though they HAD to be accomplished..m talkin abt the incomplete goals in our life... and when we talk abt "life queuE", they just dun't simply die out after being timed out! They linger on... for eternity! u can feel it's "incompleteness"... Everything else seems copacetic.. but there's something 'missing' and these are the "timed-out" requests in our life... The FIFO rule doesn't apply to the Real world!:)

The Freedom to Stare! ;)

heheh! i was in the bus today mornin and i saw a li'l kid, sitting on his mommy's lap. He was staring at the bus driver throughout the whole ride! I mean, if i wud've done tht, it wud have been like ":O", not tht i really would like to STARE at ppl, but m talkin abt the 'freedom' point here. like kids are so so much allowed to do every Goddamn paranoid stuff on this earth! like making goo goo gaa gaa noises and everyone thinks tht's actually CUTE ![:?] but the thing tht tops it all is STARING! like simply GLUED to ur object of stare:P i've noticed this thing in kidz! and another thing to notice is tht even if the person u r starin at knows the kid is starin, they dun't tend to feel uneasy! i wonder y! Acha , so it's like i was wondering..wht's behind the LONG STARE!:P like wht exactly is the kiddo wondering, thinking..wht is the mind processing abt the person or thing the kid is starin at? Isn't it something to think abt..like ur mind just can't possibly be BLANK during the whole time duration of the Stare! There must be sumthin goin on! Some mind processing, some ideas cropping up.. like wht wud kids actually think? and why doesn't anyone even ask them abt wht they r thinkin? like..is there any science behind all this and all? Wht is the kid actually "studying" abt u? The shape of ur nosE:P ??? The way u chatter noisily!:P i on a personal note, DUN'T like it at all, even when it's just a kid staring at me! cuz these short-sized einsteinz r gonna make a world out therE! and they're eyeing ur each move very carefully:P i wonder if they're inspired by our activities or sumthin..or they just simply stare at our aberrant behaviour!:P or maybe they r adopting our behaviour or sumthin...or maybe they r fond of our raiments or sumthing!!:P God! the human brain! the human staRE! Any suggestions!? does anyone knw?

Extemporaneous Thoughts

F-R-I-E-N-D..know wht it means
It's alot more than wht it seems!

If i scream at u, i do it with all rights!
Then why does it always end up with fights?

Misunderstandings, Foul play, creating havoc
Tht's not wht friends are about!

If you dun't trust me..then where do we start?
'cuz tht's the BASIC thing, which keeps distances apart ()

I give up now, m really tired and lost..
Can't continue further..at simply no cost!

I wish you the best in all your endeavours
And i thankyou for all your favours

Maybe you might look back in life and remember
The words you spoke made concoction as fire and ember

I will go on, dismissin this absence
This friendship is now sumthin,as in evanescence

Despite all, even today i would say
And i would say w/o any element of dismay

I'm glad we were friends, even though it ended in a mess
But it was sumthing beautiful, nevertheless

Take care my Friend!
I wish you live your life with whom u termed as ur "REAL" friends! :)
And m really sorry i cudn't be one of them....

The world of Lost Friends

You can't simply lose friends u know. It's quite a dumb thing to say and do! At the spur of the moment, i just lost a friend.... No, m not crying... m just wondering... My friend said to me..
1. "I dun't want to be your good friend"
2. " I dun't feel like talking to you anymore" ...

What is that suppose to mean?!?! Like..were we EVER friends then? :( And if we EVER were friends, then how can we just hate each other all of a sudden! BI says "Times change, ppl change..not a big deal is it?" .. Well..it IS a BIG DEAL!I'm not holding onto this and making crap out of it! But there should be a ...LAW! A judiciary agreement should be passed out that actually prohibits a friend from leaving his/her friend! God! i could sign a petition for this! How can my friend just...LEAVE ME!:'( I feel so....REJECTED! I was trying my best to "save" this friendship, but it works both ways, if someone wants to let go, then u gotta loosen the grip at the other end too......

O.k! life does not end herE! I remember some serial --> "Life Goes on!"... ups and downs, round and round..no wonder they have these whacky rides in the amusement parks! it's actually a physical demonstration of the "virtual reality" experiences in life! These rides delineate the bumpy aspects of life! ... :(